monday . 5 . 31 . 1o .

talk about the best weekend in a very very long time.

i love my boyfriend so much! he's perfect! ahh! i can't even believe how perfect he is. and how lucky and grateful i am that i've found him. =)

did i mention i want to spend forever with him. because i do. we had some very good talks this weekend. i feel like we're making progress. and some secrets were told, which i realllly needed to hear. =) it was amazing. i love him. so much. i love being able to tell him everything. our endless amounts of giggling. we made manicotti, or however you spell it. and we ate dinner at heidi's one night. and heidi's parents tonight. it was sooo yummy. i even tried meat this weekend. three different kinds. can you believe it. branching out a tad bit. disney scene it. movies. 'what did you drag me to?!' hahahahaha. he loved it! he loved all the birth talk. temple. smashing paintballs. who would have thunk that one could smash a paint ball with their feet?! yeah i had no idea. ha. screaming songs in the car. farewells. dax bringing a pen to sacrament meeting because he knew i would want to draw or color on the program. he knows he perfectly well. heating me up leftovers at one in the morning so i could take my medicine and not get sick. taking complete care of me all weekend long. =) ahhh! i love him so much. i could go on and on and on.

hmm. good weekend. florida next week. lets hope this week speeeeds by. i love you! night.

thursday . 5 . 27 . 1o .

i have my new obsession: 'a rocket to the moon'

yeah so in the car yesterday with shanie she had 'mr right' playing, by them. and i fell in love with it! so i came home and looked up a bunch of their songs. and i fell in love all over again. ahh! seriously. ♥ ha. i downloaded a bunch of songs. i want to make a cd for the canyon drive this weekend. but. i dont think i have nearly enough new songs. that's the suuuckie part about cd's like. you can't keep adding songs. =( boo. i just made a cd not too long ago. like right when i got my new car. and its overplayed already. ha. i find myself listening to it more than i listen to my radio. then i'm like 'what the heck! we have radio here!' and i change it. ha. but somehow i always change it back. mm. i need more music in my life.

hmm. so i have a wicked awesome bruise that keeps getting bigger on my leg. hahahaha. boo. i told my mom on tuesday 'see that bruise?!' and you could barley see it. but its getting there. each day its getting darker. by the time this weekend hits, it will be like this big purple thing on my thigh! hahaha. i can't waiiiit! i have a sick obsession with bruises. ha. i bruise fairly easily. and when you think about it. like eweee. thats a bunch of broken blood vessels. then it scares me! and i freak out a little bit. but. . . . they look cool. only on me though. hhahah. jk. ahhh.

i have like a zillion missionaries i need to write back. but i'm kind of a suckie missionary writer nowadays. sorry fellers. =( i just have no motivation. its awful. =(

so. have you ever seen those chinese lantern things? that look like this cute picture i found. i loveee those stupid things. and saw them once upon a time at a wedding reception at a golf course. like inside. and i think thats where my obsession with 'golf course wedding receptions' came to be. i want those stupid lantern things hanging all over as well! but i probably wont have them. they're probably expensive. save up thaaaat money now right? ha. i have no life here in syracuse. i might as well just work my toosh off while i'm forced to be here. uhhhahhhh. speaking of weddings, i have one not this saturday, but in a week. for my cousin. mhmm. . . . i told jenny that i'm going to be in 28 weddings before i'm married, and i'm at 3 currently. so i have 25 left before i get married. she thinks i can do it! she told me to put an add in the local newspaper. i want to be maid of honors at weddings for those girls with no friends. price : $100 for the night. also, i want my hair did all up pretty like. and the dress of course has to be bought for me. i want a closet full of dresses like that girl on '27 dresses' you just wait! it will happen before i get married!! =) and i'm content with it. also. i think i want some tanning passes to be paid for by the bride as well. i need my white pastey skin tanned please.

BRING ON FLORIDA! ahh! i can't wait. i hope i actually get some tan! stupid meds i'm on right now 'stay out of sunlight, or artificial sunlight' really dr ericksen?! don't you know that its summer time. and i can't afford to be elmers glue white?! seriously! i want to be tan, like all those pretty tan girls. one day i will be. . . one day. you'll wait and see. hmm. ewe. this medication i had to pour at work today was like glue. elmers white thick glue. it was disgusting. i'm like who drinks this?! it would get caught in my throat!! it wouldn't even come out of the bottle! it was gross. hmm.

at work today i talked to tyson about boys. mm. just one boy actually. and its probably my favorite talking to him. as much as he teases me he really helps me also.
tyson: 'if he stops calling you then you need to worry'
me: 'if he calls me then i need to worry?!'
tyson: 'no if he stops calling you! then you need to worry'
me: 'oh! don't scare me like that!!'
hahaha. it was good though. like i told him 'i know it will all work out like it should work out. but the waiting process is awful' and he was like 'yeah but really it goes by fast. like not when your in your shoes now, but looking back, you will think it did.' makes sense. like when i'm like 'ughhh. seven weeks til florida!!' and its like forever away. then all of a sudden, BAM! and its gone by already. ha. yeah. it will work out. its just a matter of being patient i suppose. tyson and jenny are def. my favorite. i can tell them anything basically and they're always there for advice. its nice. someone to finally vent to about stupid things. =) hahah. mmm. dear waiting process, you suuuck! that is all i have to say. but i'm sure when i get old and after i recieve my 28 dresses and get married, i'll look back and be like 'what the heck! time flew by' as for now. i'm like commmme on man! hurry up time! hahaha. mmm

can you tell i ramble. and have no life. i want some ice cream. except thats downstairs. andddd. that is a long ways downstairs. and i already feel like a fattie pattie. . . ewe. i need to lose some weight. i ate like a few hours then took my pill. and my tummy is not havin it tonight. ugh. please dont make me sick for tomorrow. please oh please tummy. =( i dont want to throw up all over. mmm. someone bring me ice cream. no. not ice cream. i want a rainbow from paces. mmm. they sound SO good right now. or even a shake! not ice cream. but a shake. like a chocolate banana shake. oh those are my favorite. =)

my presh boyfriend said we can go see 'the backup plan' this weekend. it just came out last weekend. and i've heard it was good. ahh! i'm soo excited! i want to see it soooo soooo bad!!!! so hopefully we go! he said we would!! =) i'm so excited! that would totally make my weekend. and my whole week has been nothing but shaaaaat. so i need this. hmm.

night babbbbies.

wednesday . 5 . 26 . 1o .

there's this song called 'letters from home' by john michael montgomery. and i heard it yesterday on the way to work for the first time in years. and i fell in love with it all over again. particularly one line in the song.

"But I'll be all right, I'm just missing you."

mm. only a few more days. that's it. =( two weeks. and its been awful. i miss my bestfriend. . . .

i miss telling him secrets. and gossip talking with him late at night while laying on the couch. i miss cuddling. i miss having that one person there that i can tell anything to, no matter what it is. i miss our little bets we would make with each other. i miss saying 'cross your heart! cross it!' and watching plenty of movies. i miss sunday nap times. i miss trying every redbox in logan city to try to find a movie, and failing. and just . . . smiling and laughing! simple things like that. i miss it soo much!

its weird. like being put in a situation where you always have that one person you run to with everything and you spend every day with. its almost like you take it for granted. and once you're taken out of that, its a big eye opener to how much that someone means to you. i know love grows, but i really think the heart grows stronger when you're away from that special someone. i know my heart has.

i miss just having him and the weekends i spend with him will never amount to everyday like it once was. but i'll take every second i can get. i can't wait til this summer is over. =(

enough sappiness. what's everyone doing tonight?!

sunday. 5 . 23 .1o .

i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. times infinity. =)

*notice his ring, enough said. =)

wednesday . 5 . 19 . 1o .

//that is all.

tuesday ; 5 . 18 .1o .

so this weekend was fun. i was going to elaborate alot more. hmm. i'll just say the highlights. well the main stories. dax was telling me a story about his friend and how she was like crazy or whatever because of this medication she was on. i asked what it was he said 'prilosec' i'm like 'what? prilosec is a heartburn medication!' hahahaha. then i laughed really hard til he pushed me off his bed. =) oh that boy. i love him so much! then i asked if he meant prozac which he did. oh trying to be all medication smart like me. =) hahaha. so cute!! he's adorable. i attempted to go rock climbing at the field house with him. but it was closed. so we went to the park and the boys played basketball. and camille and i swung on the swings. i even sat through TWO boy movies. granted i fell asleep during 'iron man' but so did dax! and he didn't even snore, i'm so proud of him. =) hahaha. but i stayed awake through 'robin hood' i think it was a no go show, like i would NOT recommend it. and i dont think dax would either. he didn't seem to like it. he owes me big time though! sunday naps, and making pretzels, home made pretzels!
cuddled alot. broke into my car! after forever. ha. sang songs, well i sang songs. lots of songs and dax just said 'whats up with all these songs!' uh idk! ha. we found popcorn trees at the temple! hahaha kind of. hmm. what else did we do? we drove through the canyon to look at the stars. parked. got out of the car. and stood in front of it. and then dax scared me. i was like talking about the constellations or whatever and he was like 'get in the car.' i'm like 'what?' he's like 'get in the car now' and i run and get in the car and we take off. he had a not good feeling. which i'm glad he did. because i was scared! we had a not good talk afterwards. but it was probably something that needed to be said. just figure out what we are this summer and such. =( i did not like the talk, at all. and i will not speak of it on here. we . . . . played games at his friends house. we didn't sleep at all sunday night, awful. =( we went and sat outside the logan temple monday, and it was thee most perfect thing ever. the grass is like SO big. and our bodies just look so small with this big perfect temple behind us! i loved it. i want a picture one day! seriously! that would be like thee best picture ever. it was perfect. and they had pretty tulips! =) i took a picture.and its actually the background on my new phone. which i'll talk about later. we actually named one of the tulips our tulip. it was a verrrry small tulip baby tulip. ha. hmm. i loved laying outside the temple. it was so peaceful, even with the cleaner up workers cleaning up the flowerbeds and such. laying on the grass, holding hands. perfect. and comparing each others pupils, what a stud of a boyfriend i have. who could ask for anything better? ha. i dont think i could like do simple stupid things like that with anyone else, and love every minute of it. came home around 1:30 on monday. chiropractor after. and then home. my phone got here! and i was wayyy excited. taylor and mick helped me put it together. mytouch, and i love it so far. i'm still learning so much about it! there's so much stuff! so many apps, etc. anyways. i didn't eat at all sunday. well. til dinner, then daddy made me eat half of a grilled cheese sandwich. no appetite. on the plus side, i lost five pounds since college. =) hahahaha. whoooow! and i didn't even gain the freshman fifteen. ha. hmm. cried forever with mom monday night.

tuesday work. it was awful. managers changed. and it was just like an overall quiet day. like i think sam is the only one with the loud mouth today. like everyone else seemed realllly queit. which made the day go by SO slow. it was awful. my back killed. =( i really dont know how to fix it. after work i went to the mall and got a cute undershirt, and a shirt from ae. but i dont think i'll ever even wear the shirt. i dont like it much. its bright yellow with a jeep on it. and a surfboard. random. i dont think i like it. but it was only ten bucks. meh. after i went to victoria secrets. and i got these freaking CUTE pair of underwear for free, with a purchase. so i bought lotion and then these adorable underwear.
i only got the saying. because i dont think you really care to see ALL of my underwear. ahaha. anyways. i'm excited to wear them! whooow. hahahah. not that anyone sees them. but still. then they made me try on this bra. called bombshell. oh my heavens. they're like 'it makes you 2 cup sizes bigger' uh. yeah! it did! i was huge. and she was like 'let me see' so i showed her, with my clothes on of course! and she was like 'oh it looks WAY good on you! you have such a cute hourglass figure with that!' uh yeah no. it looks like i have fake boobs! so weird. i would have to ONLY wear that bra for it not to look so weird, all the time. you can't wear it. and not wear it the next day! seriously. but i did want one of their zebra bra's sooo bad! but it was like fourty bucks. ugh. =( someone buy me a cute zebra bra from vickies, please. then i tried to get a cover for my phone, but i didn't like any of them. i wanted the zebra one, but it was orange and not pink. uh no thank you. i'm not an orange girl. hmm. i came home and taylor asked if i had been crying, i replied 'nope not yet. why' he was like 'you can talk to me if you want! i'm here! i'll be here for a while!' hahaha. awh so sweet, just like his lastname. sweet. so fitting, sometimes! ha. came in. everyone was having dinner. i didn't eat dinner, no appetite. mom kind of got mad, she says 'you better not be starving yourself! you're already skinny' but she did say i looked skinnier. ha. hmm. yeah i need those extra pounds off. but i'm not starving myself! i eat plenty. mick helped me with my phone and then my daxie called me. and we talked for a bit. i love him. mhmm. it was nice. even if he does play bubble popping games while on the phone with me. ha. well. now that its past 12:40 am. and i have a doctors appointment in the morning AND i dont feel good, i think i'm catching something. i suppose i should probably go to bed. butter says hello. and that he loves you, as well as i do.

goodnight fellas.

monday 5 . 17 . 1o .

i attempted to post this from my phone. it wouldn't work. so weekend was a blast, with exceptions to sunday night. locked my keys in my car friday night at angies when i first got there. cameron and dax finally got it open around 9:30. well dax did. saturday was good. this weekend def. helped me realize how much i really do love my boyfriend. and i can gladly still say my boyfriend, because he still is. =( sunday night was gosh awful. i didn't sleep at all. monday i couldn't eat. no appetite. so dad finally made me eat half of a grilled cheese sandwich. cried to mommy about everything. cried to the point where she was just yelling 'breathe! breathe!' over and over. =( no bueno. tuesday morning now and i'm headed to work. my eyes are still swollen. but i'll write more later. bye babies.

thursday . 5 . 13 . 1o .

woke up, i did not want to get up. pushed snooze. well i didn't really think i'd sleep til i snoozed. so when my alarm went off again, i freaked and jumped up so fast! hurried and got ready. late to work. the usual. fifteen minutes. work went . . . alright. it was SO slow though. it was awful! SO SO slow. we did 533 scripts today i think, but we didn't even think we did that many. our guesses were in like the 300's. i went to tacomaker for lunch. talk about SO slow. so i waited for like FIFTEEN minutes, then i started walking towards the counter, because i got it to go! and this guy was like 'what'd you get?!' so i told him and he hurried and made it for me. hellllo. some people need to get back to work! because when i leave work, i dont get paid. boo. got back and everyone was at lunch already. hurried and ate. and back to work. tyson got there and him and ronnie were SO ganging up on me! jenny was like 'chirelle, i feel bad for you! i'm sorry!' hahaha. 'oh dax hasn't found someone yet? just give him a month. he'll move on' stuff like that. =( it was awful! then tyson said 'chirelle, i really hope everything i said doesn't happen. i would feel like a jerk!' i'm like uh yeah! you would! i would come in crying and you would be like oh crap! i told him he needed a crystal ball if he's going to predict the future. BUT HE'S NOT PREDICTING THE FUTURE! because there will be no other mistress. sorry. off at six. and then i went and got my hair cut. the lady was realllly cool! and so nice. hahah. easy to talk to, definitely! came home. tanned. i put a heart sticker on my tummy, you can see it a little. just like my kissie mark. come on tanning. WORK!!! seriously. i'm all pastey white. dinner consists of a quesadilla. meh. shower. then we were all watching the news on the story of ethan stacy. which is AWFUL! and then sugar kept jumping up on her tote box thing with all her toys in it. we couldn't tell what she wanted so dad tipped it over. well she crawled in her box and we have a cone for her head we got once when she had surgery on her tummy. well her bone was inside of it. and she stuck her head in the cone. and couldn't get it off! it was SO funny! i could NOT stop laughing! it was hilarious! we were all laughing so hard. awh. i was trying to get her to do it again, but she got too smart and she would just tip it over or whatever. ha. anyways. bed now. nighhhht.

OH PS!!! did you know that i get to see my cute perfect boyfriend tomorrow!? its been a WEEK! and i miss him so much! i can't even wait!! =) i'm SO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope he's excited. he's mine ALL weekend. =)

love you kiddies.

wednesday . 5 . 12 . 1o .

woke up and laid in bed forever. called mom and asked when the carpet people were going to be here. got up. showered. straightened my hair. makeup, uh no. too lazy. ha. pj's all day. YES! i redid my toes. so now they're pink, with a brush down of purple. they looked good when i looked at them earlier. i've been wearing socks all day though. its been so freaking cold all day! i watched the tyra show today. i loveee that show. it was about popular teenagers and not popular teenagers. and how they treat each other. it was good. like she said 'dont say 'i'm sorry for whatever i did' because then its not a sincere apology. its saying sorry because you need to' which makes sense. and that there can be fact like 'i kicked the ball' or 'i did not kick the ball' but when its someones emotions, you dont know how they feel so something you say that might be nothing to you, might really hurt someone else. so you can't say 'i didnt hurt them' because you dont know if you did. idk. tyra put it alot better than me. then i watched her next show. it was weird. like a guy with a vagina! or a guy that wants to breast feed his children. and he was like 'i think if i try hard enough i will produce milk one day' and this doctor was on there and she was like 'no you will never produce milk' hahaha. or this couple that are married and they're FIRST cousins. gross. it was an . . . odd show to say the least. taylor came over and was like 'WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO BREAST FEED!? i mean unless your a girl!' hahahah. it was funny. came up and cleaned my room. its getting there! i can actually see the floor! most of my mess has moved to the hallway though. but its all baskets and bags of DI stuff. i need to take it friday. anyways. hmm. i can't wait til friday. whooow. i'm so excited! excited for to see my boyfriend! excited for my phone! it should be here tomorrow or friday. =) probably friday. HOPEFULLY! i'll be pissssed if it doesn't come til saturday because i wont be here. but it said its in colorado now. so we'll see. colorado is close! =) well. off to bed, or something. love you babies.

tuesday . 5 . 11 . 1o .

monday. carpet guys called and said they'd be a little late. so after laying in bed forever. i finally got up and showered. straightened my hair. then went and cleared off the carpet. the guy showed up around 11:45. cleaned the kitchen while he was here. as much as i could! all the tables and such were pushed into the kitchen. ha. i ebay-ed for a bit. mick got home and helped me bid on a phone. =) i need it bad. my speaker is all retarded on my phone, so everything sounds all blurred. its annoying and retarded. i say 'what?' alot when talking on the phone lately. that's why! blah. hmm. then i headed out to the chiropractor. he wasn't there. so i went to layton mall. and bought a dress and some shorts, which i'm undecided if i like them enough to keep them. 45 ish bucks. eh. i dont know yet. i tried to find shoes at forever young. but i didn't like any of their shoes this time. so i'll have to look at the ogden mall, that store is bigger. hmm. went to sally's and got nail stuff. and hobby lobby for glitter and such. then back to dr. canova's office. he helped my back a million times! it feels so much better. all i needed was a little back lovin'! ha. a have a million knots in my lower back that just need to be worked out. any volunteers? seriously. i would go to the chiropractor daily if i could. anyways. brought tacobell home to mick. and then we watched the tyra show for a bit. gosh. these moms wanted their daughters to be famous. so this one lady had a three year old daughter and was like 'yeah i would let her do nude pictures, as long as her hair was long enough to cover her boobs.' tyra was like 'there's ADULTS that wouldn't even do nude pictures like that!' hello that child will be SO scarred when she grows up knowing her mom didn't even care to put her body out there when she was THREE! some people! i swear. attempted to do my toes, but they just messed up because i didn't take the other coats off. so then i began filing them down. still not done. i'll work on them wednesday. that's a WHOLE lot of filing! blah. i did mommy's toes when she got home, bright purple. and mick's bright blue and bright green, switching off. dad said i could do his, but i wasn't daring enough to touch his feet. i'm SO not a feet person. so doing someones toes, is like about all i can handle!! watched the lakers vs jazz game while i did it. whooow. my lakers won AGAIN. but who's surprised? because no one should be. =) bed afterwards.

tuesday. woke up around 7:00 ish. well a little before. but i just laid in bed. went downstairs and mick was on the computer, she's like 'you're winning! only a little bit longer!' sweeeeet. so i went and got ready for work. no makeup. pft. i have no one to impress. i've gotten past that stage. i dont even care anymore. ha. ate some yummy life cereal. it was like maple and brown sugar. so good! =) i def. need to buy some more of it! then checked the computer. my dad was more excited than i was for winning the phone! $215 later i will have a new phone soon. =) its much needed. and i hesitated alot alot on buying the stupid thing. but. it needed to be done. =) i hope i like it! it'll be a new change. left for work. 13 minutes late. not bad. i counted CII drugs with sam. work actually was gooooood today, real good. jenny acted like the crazy ladies on 'maury' and was like 'i am 120 percent shooore he IS the faaauther of my babyyy! look at them eyes! they the SAME!' hahaha. it was so funny. we were laughing so hard. she's very good at impressions. ewe. what i noticed today at the pharmacy that bugged me. one lady i work with, she has the WORST grammar ever! she just says stuff and its like 'uh that's not how you say it' like she said 'that's how its pacifically to be' pacific? like the ocean? it drives me CRAZY! whatever. so there was this spider. and i took this box and smashed it with it.

** i had a picture, but it wont upload. i'll insert later **

well ronnie saw me then like five minutes later he was like 'chireeeeellle your spider is alive!' ewe! so i went and smashed it with my shoe! sick! hmm. hospital with sam for food for lunch. then back to work to eat it. called daxie after. only for like two seconds though. eh. my back didn't hurt at ALL today, i was sooo impressed! i kept looking at the clock like 'k its 4pm. when is my back going to hurt?!' vented to jenny about everything today. she gave me some good advice. but alot of stuff that would contradict what i've already said to people. meh. why didn't i ask her for advice before i opened my big trap!? she's smart! what was i thinking? i'm stupid. everyone was saying tyson is really excited for work thursday to tease me about me being home and dax being in logan. oh i can only imagine what he's got stirring up in his pot!! after work went to JCPenny to look for glasses. no glasses. so i went to walmart in clinton, their selection was awful. so i came home. dinner. mom made spaghetti sausage stuff. mine without sausage. and rolls. played with sugar. i wore her out throwing her squeaky bone. she went and laid by her water and tried to drink it while laying down. so tired! it was cute. then she came and cuddled with me and fell asleep til i put her in her kennel. came up played on mommy's itouch. and then came in here and thissss. then bed shortly. i'm tireeeed! that's what i get for working early, and longgg days. tomorrow will be nice to have a break! =) i already need it. the carpet place is coming again, because they didn't clean the carpets right, they stink SO bad. so hopefully tomorrow will be better. the owner is coming down instead. ha. mom called and complained. oh gosh. anyways. butter and i are ready for bed now. goodnight kiddies.

ps. kendrick's baptism is may 29th! =)
patriarchal blessing may 30th! -- jess said she can't come with me because she'll be out of town. boo. so mom said she'd come.

so many plans this month! i'm stoked!!

loveyou,bby.

sunday . 5 . 9 . 1o .

the family party was a riot. i love those! =) when i first walked in i saw trevor with kysin! his new baby which i haven't seen before. i hurried and put my stuff down and went over and stole him away from trevor! hahaha. he's adorable!! so cute! he's 5 months as of the fourth. so just barley. he's such a quiet baby and a good baby! he didn't even have a binky like the whole time. it was amazing. ha. so content. then we ate dinner. and jay asked 'so boyfriend?' and he was asking if i had one. and my reply was 'awh! he's cute!!' hahaha. he was like 'so you do have one!' hahaha. =) uh yeah uncle jay, only the bestest boyfriend ever! duuuh! then all us girls got together after and talked about like college and stuff like that and what we're doing the next girls night and such. they want to make the temple pictures, thinking i could help them make them. uh i dont know how! i dont know everything they put on it! crazies. but all the boys played basketball while we were doing this. they came in all sweaty afterwards, gross! hahaha. i played with michelle's daughter lindsey's baby kayla. she's six months old. so cute!so i look terrified in this picture. but its because she was fussy all day. so when i took her i was afraid she'd start crying all over again. and she was all wiggley. but guess what?! she didn't even cry! yeah i'm amazing. i took her binky out of her mouth and she was all laughy. i love playing peek a boo with little kids. because they REALLY dont know if you'll come back. so when you come back it really does surprise them. thank you psychology for teaching me so much! =) two cute babies, makes a girl baby hungry. believe me i can wait for babies. but they're soo cute to have around when they're not screaming. =) hmm. what else happened. idk. we came home around eight. so home by eight thirty ish. watched 'teen mom' with daddy and sister. for a bit. daddy kept yelling at the tv 'she's trailer trash! how can she afford braces!?' now daddy be nice. hahaha. hmm. played a game on mommy's ipod touch. and i got a score of like 9300, or something like that. and so mommy played it seeing if she could beat me. no she got NEGATIVE 800 something. hahaha. it was so funny! she was like 'what?! how am i in the negatives!?' quite amusing actually. i made sugar all hyper, dad was not happy. he said she needs to be put on medicine to make her unhyper because she's always crazy hyper. if any of you have seen sugar, then you would definitely know why he said that! hahaha. its pretty self explanatory. daxie my love called me around eleven. =) whooow. oh how i love hearing his voice. if i can't see him and be with him. i suppose we'll have to rely on phone calls for now. he NEEDS to get a webcam i decided. then i could at least see him a bit every week. that would be nice! invest in something useful, a webcam. i have one. that would be splendid. but idk if it would happen. meh. i could run the idea by him. well. he reads this. 'dax. i think you should get a webcam' there we go. now he knows! hahah. we talked for a little bit. gosh. those twenty six ish minutes we talk for, completely make my day! i love it. i love him so much! one day, one day, one day!!!

well. i'm off to bed. yawning already. love you.

night babies.

ps. i'll post more pictures tomorrow possibly. my phone wont sent them to my email for some reason. stuuuupid phone. someone buy me a 'mytouch 3g' phone pleaseeeee.

sunday . 5 . 9 . 1o .

church this morning was good! gosh i've been having these crazy awful dreams lately. lastnight it was about this blood sucking spider that killed these pigs and goats. and then my dad picked it up and threw it into this shower and it splattered all over me. it was disgusting. =( gosh. mothers day today. we had waffles for breakfast. yum. church was good. then i had an interview with the bishop. mhmm! =) whooow. came home. this and now i'm going to get ready for thee family party at four. i'll write more later. love you!

In your honest opinion, do you think heart break is real?
yes to some extent.

Do you think it's bad for teenage girls to get on birth control?
i don't think so.

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
yesh! =)

Are you wasting your time on someone?
i don't think so, i hope not! this better not come crashing in my face. forever is a long time.

Do you care if people hate you?
depends on who.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yes there is.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
right about now.

What colors are your eyes?
ugly brown. =(

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
fully trust? very few.

It's 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely?
mm. jess or dax? they're the only people i ever text.

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
yes.

Will you be in a relationship one month from now?
yes i will be.

Do you think you will be married by the time you are 25?
yes.

What was the last thing that made you laugh?
probably sugar.

Are you currently looking forward to anything tomorrow?
clean carpets! whooow.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
i'm tired. and my feet are cold. and my room still needs to be cleaned.

Is there anything in your room that reminds you of the past memories?
yeah. so i've been cleaning out my room. believe me, i ripped up my fair share of notes and cards and such. whoow. it felt so good!

Be honest, are you starting to gain feelings towards anyone?
i've already gained feelings towards someone.

How did you get your last bruise?
probably dax pinching me!

A random person yells to you "Hey, baby," what do you say?
uh hey?

Will you be up before 7am tomorrow?
no! no.

Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?
my little sister, yes. she had this cute never before worn green dress in her room. so i stole it for church.

Were you mad when you woke up this morning?
no. ewe. i had a gross dream about a blood sucking spider. so it was good when my sister woke me up. she saved me from that dream!

Are you friends with the last girl you talked to?
yeah we're friends.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you hugged?
dax. =(

What was the last movie you watched?
oh boy. i have no idea.

The one you want to spend the rest of your life with, is where?
rigby, idaho for the weekend.

What did you do today?
church so far. bishop interview. =) that's all. family party at four.

Do you like to make the first move?
never.

What were you doing an hour ago?
getting home.

Does anyone call you babe?
i dont think so.

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
yes.

Will you be single over summer?
no.

If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?
nah.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
yesh. most of the time.

What is the first thing you do in the morning?
check my phone.

Where would you like to go?
back to logan. =(

Have you ever let someone be your everything?
mhmm.

Who was the last person to make you smile?
mmm.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
dax, texting.

Is there anyone you want to hang out with?
daxie.

When was the last time you had actual fun?
friday was good.

Who last gave you something and what was it?
daxie gave me flowers, purple tulips to be exact! =)

saturday . 5 . 8 . 1o .

so i moved back home yesterday. we had to be out of our dorm by three. and then jessica came and checked us out. justin came up and helped me and jess take stuff down to his car. well. he brought up jess's parents car to fit everything. so we were out by three. and i went over to dax's. and we packed some of his food and took it over to his new place he's moving into for the summer. and then we went to olive garden. it was good. like i'm such a fattie. we went out to eat EVERY DAY last week because no one wanted to buy food or cook anything because it was finals week and we were moving out. ha. we're lazy butts. i love it. so we went to lunch. olive garden. it was yummy. and it was good to talk to him and such. i love that boy so much. like i love how we can just talk! mature, or immature. and its all good. so then we went back to his place and grabbed my stuff. well they had a freaking dog in there! and i freaked out. my heart was about to beat out of my chest, literally! because i was so scared! oh gosh. no bueno. hahaha. then dax walked me to my car. OH and he bought me purple tulips, my favorite. look how smart he is! he's def the best boyfriend ever. so he hugged me and we were looking at our reflection in my windows and he's like 'look how cute we look!' and then i knew i was no longer strong and about to cry so i got in my car and he was like 'i love you' and i just about lost it! i only cried a little. =( then i drove off. it was SO hard. then i texted him saying 'maybe this will help you decide what you want' and he said 'thats exactly what i was thinking. that was so hard to let you go' so hopefully that'll help him answer those few questions i've been asking him lately. =( we'll see. i love him so much. and i will spend forever with him. i just need him to figure out what he wants, forever. blah. its so hard. the whole way home i kept like driving and then my eyes would tear up and then tears would stream down my face. boo. so jess called me when i got to brigham city and told me that our temple picture making thing was moved from seven to six thirty. so i rushed home and went straight there after running home to put my flowers in water. we made these wicked awesome temple pictures! they're rad. those pictures you buy for like 200 bucks. we made for fifty. and its so much better to say 'yeah i made that' instead of 'yeah i paid bookoo bucks for that' =) so much more personable. so then today all i've been doing is cleaning my room! like cleaning it out. i've made several piles of laundry baskets in the hallway. for A. garbage. B. college stuff for basement storage for now. and C. stuff to give away to the DI. blahhh. its taking forever. and my bed is still piled with things and i can't move around worth my life. its awful! oh my gosh! so cleaning today i found a fake drivers license in a purse i had when i was little. it was an idaho drivers license. HAHAHAHA. gosh, even when i was little i knew i was going to marry someone from idaho. hahaha. oh gosh. =) it made me smile though. i can dream right? so. i think i'm going to buy a phone. yeah. mytouch. my sister has it and she really likes it. she let me play with it for a bit today. i told her to find one for me online. its 300 dollars. blah. idk if its worth me buying a phone or if me and dax get married we'll switch plans and get on the same plan i'm sure. so i'm like BLAH. what do i dooo. i'm thinking mega in the future i know. but still. you can never be too prepared. went mothers day shopping with mick today. we went everywhere! finally settled on barnes and noble for these two books that are like way cool. interesting facts and such. and then we went and got her this basket thing with these wicker balls and a card. and then carpets cleaned on monday. so it'll be good. did you know the average man spends $155 on mothers day gifts? yeah! i heard it on the radio the other day. thats insane. mothers day party tomorrow at jay and michelle's house. i'm sooo excited to see everyone! they're going to be ooberly bummed they dont get to meet daxie though. because i promised. well. next party i will, definitely. OR maybe for my sisters graduation party i can drag him down here. =) we'll see. anywho. i'm off to go clean some more. and possibly call dax? i dont know what he's doing tonight. i know he went home to idaho but idk what his plans were. mm. oh yes. my lakers took the cake again tonight. there's no possible way the jazz will even win now. they have NO chance. i love it!! whooow. come on my lakers, you've got ittt babaaay! hahahah.

we are the championsssss. no time for losing, because we are the champions of the worldddd!

love chirelleieieieieeeebuggie.

ps. i have that 'you're love is my drug' song stuck in my head. i've been listening to it ALL day. i'm obsessed a little bit. i love it!

pps. one pro about moving home. i gain a whole new wardrobe! =) hahaha. yeah i stole my sisters shirt today. and she was like 'you would take my shirt!' why yes i would. i can't even get in my room to see what i have. and you have some new cute clothes that i wouldn't mind borrowing. thanks for having cute taste in clothes. and my same size!

another pro about being home is that i can weigh myself 294950 times a day again. =) whoooow! yeah i'm kind of a stickler about my weight. that freshman fifteen will NOT be happening, thank you very much.

&& my biggest con, no dax. =( i hope i get to see him soon!!