tuesday , 6 . 29 . 1o .

oh wow. so last weekend i went to idaho with my most perfectest boyfriend ever. i love him. so much. it was perfect. we got there just in time. kire and jen and their family were there. tyanna and her family were there. and jeremy and becca came shortly after. it was really fun to get to see everyone again. =) i pretty much love his family. we played monopoly deal a bunch. hahaha. it was fun though. talk about some addicts! hahaha. just kidding. anyways. date saturday night with brian, dax's friend. and then he brought a date, kyra. she was cute. very nice. dax made me homemade cheesecake earlier that day. =) yuuuum. so we all had some. it was delish! he's a very good cook, it'll be perfect once we get married, because he can cook. . . or teach me. HA. uhhh. sure. sunday we went to a homecoming for one of his friends. and becca made us german pancakes before hand. so good! one of his friends is actually from syracuse. so i went to junior high with him! what a small world huh! i dont know him. or anything. but still. small world! hmm. i loved our drive home. except at the end of the drive i just felt like crying. but it was a good cry. but i held it in very well. ha. we were just talking about wedding stuff. and i love it. it just makes me sooo happy. and makes me realize how much i really do love dax and i really do want to spend the rest of my life with him, and only him. i've never felt that feeling like so strong before ever. we talked about finances and stuff. and we could do it. it wouldn't be easy especially with college and such. but we could do it. what are the chances he would get a job with insurance as well. like it just fell RIGHT into place. we could do it with a fairly nice apartment as well. i think. i love my boyfriend!! one day he will be my fiance, and then husband. mark my words.

i left logan late sunday night because i have a hard time leaving dax. =( then i got called into work monday, on my day off! freak. i worked over 80 hours the last two weeks. so i was excited for my day off. but did i get it?! no. stupid. so i went into work. worked all day. then worked all day today as well. day off tomorrow, and i'm DEF not going in! i have lunch plans with jess, fiesta guad. i can't wait!!! and then i want to go shopping and then i have dinner plans with daxie my love. he's coming down so i'll probably drag him shopping with me! he wants to go as well though for new work clothes. and i'll probably cave and buy him some new shorts. because he needs them. =) i love him so much. =) and you know when you love someone because you realize how unselfish you are. i'm a pretty selfish girl. but i dont feel so selfish anymore. one day we'll share money anyways right? =)

mommy wants me to go watch the time travelers wife with her. boo. i like it. but i feel like i just watched it up at college. i wish it was something else. PS i STILL need to watch the secret life from lastnight. and pretty little liars from tonight. i'm a little obsessed with both!!! maybe i'll go watch the secret life online in my room. . . mmm. i'm excited to see my boyfriend tomorrow!! i just want everyone to know!! =) he's perfeeeect.

OH! and i get my nails done tomorrow!! finalllllllly! love your faces.

monday . 6 . 21 . 1o .

i heard the bessssst quote today. and it SO applies to my life right now.

"You have enemies? Good, that means you actually stood up for something"

ahhh! its sooo true. hello work situtations. ha. christy despises me greatly. its ridiculous. hahaha. oh well. be a b. its fine. =) i like to talk lots to jenny to piss you off, because it does. hahahahah. its the beeeest! i can be a b right back. =) whoooow for talents that you obtain young. hahaha. jenny was at work today. and it made work fly by, granted i left work at four. but stilll!!! it was nice. hahaha. tyson says 'chirelle only talks when jenny or danny is here' and jeff says 'yeah she only talks crap with danny on the jazz.' hahahaha. truuuue. thank you for realizing that everyone. i talk occasionally to tyson. but that's about it. everyone else pretty much drives me insane. sometimes. well. not everyone. i should clarify.

i went to the chiro today. felt sooo gooood. i love massages. oh man. can my future husband and i just have a date night once a week at least and get massages? or actually, he can just give me a massage a few times a week. i'm good with that. future husband, if you're out there listen up! and get ready for years of massages. hahaha. on me of course. i'm stubborn.

now i'm home. and i had to dig out my printer from college! and drag it up to my room so i can start making these invites to the bridal shower. our reg computer is busted. asdlkfjs. so. i have to do it all on my laptop. prayyyy it works! =(

i saw jess' wedding announcement today! SO FREAKING CUTE! ahh! i can't wait. i'm excited for her. also she said she wants to watch butter while i'm on my honeymoon. hahaha. i told her i would let her. she would treat butter good. and tuck him in at night. =)

bytheway. the weekend was amazing. and i realllly needed it. daxie baby came down and we went to the drive inn's saturday night. and then church early sunday. we got like four hours of sleep. boo. church. sat by chan's family. her mommy is so cute. she was telling daxie how amazing i am and such and she started crying. =( so cute though! hahaha. austin everrett's mommy came up to me and had me hold a 'hump day' sign for him. hahaha. i was like 'uh me hold it? sure!' hahaha. then. hmm. what else. nappppptime. =) it was cute. waking up to dax. awhh. cuuute. i love our sunday naptimes. they're beyond perfect. i'm serious. my favorite. =) then we got ready for the party. family party at our house. it was good actually. i dont think they scared dax away too much. hahah. jk. =) it was a success i think. hopefully. jumping on the trampoline with the little kids was cute. hm. i love that boy. so much. i really hope we can plan on one day. i would love that. but as of now, we'll see what happens.

peace out babies. time to print out invites to jess' bridal shower!! =)

ps. i'm such an amazing brides maid! hahahah.

saturday . 6 . 19 . 1o .

soooo. i just remembered today is jessica's pageant! and i SO wanted to go. =( miss westpoint. boo. i reallllly want to go. but i have dinner plans with dax, jess, justin, colton, and ashlee. which will be fun. i just . . . yeah. =( i need to cleaaaan like alot. but my bed feels sooo good. i can't get up. hahaha. i'm lazy. i need to go to the store and get floor cleaning shattt. but i think i'll just clean them later today. and get everything else clean in the meantime. i hate going to the store. like yeah if i need a bunch of things then its fine. i still hate going, but i'll go. but no. to go to the store to get floor cleaner. bothers me. like i have to get ready to buy floor cleaner?! whatever. . . hmm. i hope today turns out to for the best. i always get pretty nervous nowadays when i see dax. =( i just dont want things to change.

i'm not even going to go on that 'dax' topic, because as you all know i wont get off of it. has anyone heard the new california girls song? by katy perry? yeah i'm pretty obsessed. i loveee it! i keep it up on youtube, replay. replay. replay. hahah. i'm a nerd. accept it. i needdddd to do bridal shower shat today as well. alsdkjfslkj. i'm screwed. officially screwed. i should have gotten up at FIVE AM to accomplish everything i need to today. =( asdlkfjlskj. peace out kiddies. i shall get a move on the day, i suppose.


ps. progress is shown over an amount of time, not just the next day. you'll see. i need to do this for myself.

ahhhhhhhhhah. i'm so boring.

friday . 6 . 18 . 1o .

i reallllly want to blog and just vent because i feel like i have been holding so much in. and it just piles up and piles up. and venting to people sometimes don't compare. =( i just feel like screaming. i have like a zillion thoughts running through my mind, and its almost like they're trapped. i feel like there's so many things personally, that i want to change about myself. and what better time than now i suppose. right? we'll see what happens. i need to make some changes. hm. i'm exhausted. and bothered. and its been one helllllll of a long day. =( goodnight kids.

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sunday; june 13 , 2o1o.

okay so last week i went to florida. flew in a week ago today. we flew ALL day basically. so we didn't do much sunday night, except grocery shopping. in the pooring rain! hahaha.
monday we got up early and went to the zoo. it was soo much fun. sooo hot though! 107 degrees. kill me! seriously. so when we got there grandma said 'dont leave the keys in the car' uh. do we normally?! aahaha. it was just funny how she said it. then we went into this bug place in the zoo. and grandma got an electric wheelchair but she didn't know how to fully use it quite yet. so she almost ran into mom when we went into this building. and they had these big robot bugs, like beetles, grasshoppers, worms, etc. and my mom jumped back because she almost got ran over by the wheelchair. and this lady was like 'are you scared? dont be scared. they're just robots' thinking my mom thought they were REAL bugs. hahahahahahahahaah! it was HILARIOUS! oh my gosh. we couldn't stop laughing. we went out for lunch and ended up leaving because it was just tooooo hot. and when we went out like grandma was just sitting outside the car in the heat on the wheelchair. we're like 'you can get in the air conditioned car and eat' so she rammed the wheelchair into the car trying to get it AS close AS possible! my mom was like 'uh you aren't paralyzed! you can walk!' it was soo funny! then they had to take back the wheelchair which was right inside the gate. and grandma was like 'do we need the map?' hahahahahah. no. i dont think we'll get lost says my mom. it was great. came home. it poooored. went to dunkin donuts, that lady was a witch! i'm like 'like your job is that hard!' she was just onry and not so nice. so we're headed back to the condo and grandma is like 'oh we need to stop at the store to get tin foil' so we pass this store and decided to go to a store closer to the condo. then grandma is like 'wait. let's go there' so we turn around and go back. and then we pull into the parking lot and she says 'actually. lets just go to the dollar store' i'm like 'no! we turned around just to come here. go inside and get it!' and it was STILL pooring rain. so we did that. then home. grandpa caught some fish. ewe. went and walked on the beach after it stopped raining. and there were so many turtle eggs like blocked off. so i came home and i was like 'grandma how do the turtles know where they can lay eggs. how do they know to lay the eggs in the marked off zones?' she was like 'well i dont know..' then she looked all confused. hahahah! uhh. the turtles lay eggs anywhere! and someone blocks them off. they dont lay eggs in certain marked areas. hahahahaha. oh gosh. we saw a sea turtle like 4 feet from us though! it was sooo cool! we chased it along the shore line for a bit!
tuesday. played in the pool all day. got buuuuurned horribly bad. walked on the beach. then back for the rest of the day basically.
wednedsay. too sunburned to do anything.
thursday. eyes swollen shut from sunburn. didn't do anything.
friday. laid around. eyes still swollen. left for airport. flew into atlanta. but we taxied around on the runway too long so we missed our flight from atlanta to slc. BUT sam and i got to sit up with the pilot in the cockpit! it was awesome! we got pictures. they're on sam's camera. then i asked the pilot 'will you hold my teddy bear?' he was like 'uhh. sure' hahaha and the other pilot was like 'YES! hold her teddy bear!' hahahah. when i first went up there i was like 'can i sit in the cockpit with you?' and the pilot was like 'yeah! come on up! and bring your teddy bear!' hahahaha. it was funny. the flight attendant kept trying to steal butter from me. stayed the night in atlanta at a hotel, a wayyyy nice hotel.
saturday. airport. this guy was wearing boxers. a polo white shirt, and dress shoes. hahahah! i take it he missed his flight as well! hahahaah. the security guy was like 'i need to see your pretty brown eyes' because i had sunglasses on. =( because my eyes are still swollen. i'm like 'welll.. you wont be able to see them really' and took off my glasses. it looks like someone beat me! i swear. its awful. our flight to chicago then slc was canceled. so we got on a different flight to san diego then slc. we missed that flight. so we had to wait on standby to try to get right into slc. well. we got on BARLEY. they loaded the whole plane then was like 'here! go go go!' and rushed us on. well grandparents got seats. then sam and mom got a seat. but someone was in my seat. so . . the flight attendant was like 'just sit anywhere. its not a full flight' uh yes it is! so there was no where to sit. so i was like 'fine i'll just stay' and then they moved someone and put me in their seat. so i got a seat. so annoying though! flight home. four hour flight. blaaaaah. it was SO long. landed around 4 ish. got sbarro's pizza. and then left the airport. we only ate airport food because having our flights canceled and such delta had to give us money for airport meals. so we had like money to spend basically. home around 6:30. finalllly. showered. re-did my toes. watched toystory 1. and part of toystory 2. they were on disney channel. hahaha. bed.
sunday. scott's farewell at nine this morning. the little boy in front of us fell asleep on his daddy's chest and was snoring SO loud! it was SO cute though! =) awh we were all laughing. after mike's mom wanted a picture of all the tasty's crew to send to mike. so like 15 of us got up to take a picture. she was like 'wow! i didn't know you ALL worked at tastys!' hahahah. yeah we all did! and like megan and rachel and maki and kendrick etc weren't even there! could you imagine if EVERYONE was there! sheesh! it would have been a madhouse! lunch at scott's after. the tasty's crew all sat in scotts bedroom. just like we did at mike's farewell. ha. hmm. it was good. then left a little before 11. came home. made up jess' bridal shower invitations! =) i just need addresses. and to make them up. i have the saying all done. ha. eh. anyways. idk what the plans are the rest of the day. my eye looks and feels better. its just slightly swollen. AND i'm peeling BADLY on my forehead and my back and shoulders. its so gross. ewe. well i get to see daxie later today. i love him so much. i miss him! =( oneday we'll spend forever together. but i'm sure it will be a little bit. i can wait. i'm patient. . . i suppose. ha.

saturday . 6 . 5 . 1o .

busy busy day today. i have watermelon fingernails.
so nail appointment this morning. then. laundry. and chad's wedding at three thirty. and reception tonight at six. and taylors graduation party at four thirty. whoooow. buuuusy day. and on top of that, i realllly need to pack. because i haven't yet. call me a procrastinator. do it. i dare you.

How many people have you kissed, that you can HONESTLY say you loved?
honestly. one.

Has anyone told you they don't wanna ever lose you?
yesh.

Do you truly hate anyone?
only like two people.

Would you share your drink with a stranger?
gross. no.

What are you listening to?
keyboard.

Did you like anyone last summer?
last summer. not really. ha.

What color are your eyes?
ugly brown.

When will your next kiss be?
daxie.

When's your birthday?
august 9teenth.

Last person to text you last night?
dax.

What are you doing tomorrow?
florida!

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yes.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
i have one.

Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?
at that time they did. but i dont think its affected me now.

Can you read other peoples expressions?
yes.

Will tomorrow be good?
yesssh.

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
yes.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot? When?
yes. now.

What are you most anxious/​​​excited for?
yesss.

What's your favorite drink?
strawberry lemonade. yumm. or sprite. or strawberry milk.

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
no no.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
yes.

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
a few.

What's the last thing you have eaten?
cookie.

Do you like where you live?
sure.

What do you have pierced on you?
ears.

Do you blow dry your hair?
usually.

Who knows your secrets?
dax.

Do you straighten your hair?
everyday.

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
yes.

Do you like being home alone?
no. it scares me.

Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to respond?
sometimes.

Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone?
all the tiiiime.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? Who? How long?
off and on, once.

Is there anyone you're holding on to, even though you know you shouldn't?
no.

Your ex says he/she misses you, and you say?
no thank you.

When is the last time you cried?
a week ish ago.

Do you look like your sibling(s)?
i dont think so. others do.

When was the last time you rode in a car? With who?
earlier. by myself.

How was today?
good so far.

How often do you say 'lol' in a computer or text conversation?
NEVER.

Do you feel your life is at it's best?
as best as it can be right now i suppose.

If someone wanted to tell you how they felt, would you listen?
yes.

Have you talked to the person you like today?
yesss. and i love him.

Did you hug or kiss anyone today?
no.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
laundry.

What woke you up this morning?
alarm.

What was the last thing you and your parents argued about?
yeahhh.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
hahaha.

Will this weekend be a good one?
hopefully. today's busy. tomorrows florida.

Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss?
probably.

Think back to this time last year, were you happy?
not so much.

Are there things in your life that you'll never be able to get over?
perhaps.

Have you broken the law in the past 5 days?
speeding maybe. ha.

Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in?
probably.

What are you doing?
this.

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
i went to clearfield high. enough said?

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
no.

Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?
no.

Say your last ex walks up to you and hugs you, what do you say?
get off me.

What is something you disliked about your day?
ehhh.

Do you still talk to the person you were dating 4 months ago?
yesh. i 'm still with him, thank you very much.

Are you capable of holding down a long-term relationship?
i think so.

Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
i have no idea.

What shirt are you wearing?
efy shirt.

Name the shoe brand you are wearing.
no shoes.

What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
old ladies + short shorts = scary! hahahahah!

thursday. 6 . 3 . 1o .

today was the worst day ever. i have a stupid mosquito in my room. yesterday i woke up all bitten. and then again today! except the stupid thing bit my eye and so my eye and face was all swollen. it was awful. then i was late to work. and i went to take my medicine this morning. and i took my sisters SLEEPING MEDICINE instead. ahh. it was awful. got to work. and like an hour later i was exhausted. i was sooo tired all day. so i left for lunch. got tacomaker and then went and got a drink. the caffeine didnt even help. stuuuupid medicine! stuuuupid sleeping pills that look like my antibiotics! ugh. and my thumbs have mosquito bites on them as well. on the knuckle part. so they're all swollen and i can't bend them. ugh. so i went and got banana's after work and rubbed the peel on my fingers. blah. hopefully it takes away the swollen itchyness!


basically an awful day. i'm hungry. and tired.

third day of working ten hour shifts. except today we didn't get out til 7:30. so make that one day of working a ten hour shift, one day of a ten and a half hour shift. and one day of an eleven and a half hour shift. SHOOOOOT ME NOW. =(