august 4th. 2014. monday.

Why hello. Where have you been? Where have I been? This blog thing. It's been a while. A friend of mine asked me yesterday why I have not blogged in a while. LIFE. That's why. Ha. Let me get you caught up on my busy life.

Finished one more semester of college in May. Moved home. This was such a bitter sweet thing. I will miss Logan in general. I will miss living with my awesome roommates. I was very blessed with roommates these past two years. Megan & Amanda. My best friends. I could not be more thankful for them in my life. I wish we could all buy a mansion & live in it together. Ha. I was seriously blessed to have them as roommates. We all became great friends. & I see those friendships continuing over the years of our lives.

Moving home was weird. I enjoy having my own space. I do not feel like I have my own space here at my parents house. I mean I do, but I miss being on my own a little bit. Some people will not understand unless they've lived on their own for FOUR YEARS. Yeah. I've only spent summers at home in the previous four years. So knowing I'm home for good is bittersweet.

I have been working my summer away. Literally. With a few little trips away. I went to Vegas with Zack's family in June. It was a nice get away. I enjoy spending time with him & his family. I adore his family more than words can express. They make me feel like part of the family. The trip was fun-- yet I think near the end we were both sick of each other. We started fighting & I remember Halee, Zack's sister saying, "Just because you two are fighting does not mean that it has to ruin the fun for everyone else." I was so sick of fighting but we both think we can read each others minds. Which is impossible. Something we need to learn to figure out. Not reading each others minds, but learning how to deal with it.

At work we have been busy as always.  Some days are slow. But those days are very rare. For the 24th of July we decided to dress up like cowboys & cowgirls. Well, most of us did. It was really fun actually. Sam & I probably annoyed more people than usual that day with our cap guns & our little stand off outside. Ha. Alan went & bought us food. We did a cook out on the grill outside. He even bought me veggie burgers! Ha It was really nice of him. I think everyone knows that for the most part I really enjoy my coworkers & my job!

I have been to a few concerts this summer. Carrie Underwood, Rascal Flatts, & Tim McGraw. All in July so far. I still have three more concerts coming up. Or maybe just two if I sell my Alabama tickets. The concerts have been fun. Carrie Underwood was at the stadium of fire in Provo. I went with Zack's family and we stayed at his grandparents house in Provo. Rascal Flatts was in Tooele. Zack & I went. We met up with Amanda before the concert for dinner at Costa Vida. It was yummy. It was so nice to see her. I haven't seen her in a while! Tim McGraw was a freaking pain to get into. I purchased tickets from a girl in Idaho. Those tickets should have been at will-call. They were not. We stood outside the concert for two hours trying to figure out what to do. Zack kept asking me, "What do we do?" I'm like, "I don't know! I'm in the same boat as you. It's not like I have tickets & you don't!" Anyways. Two hours later we got into the concert. & it was amazing. Favorite concert of the summer so far!!!

River Rafting at Lava for Halee's birthday. It was a lot of fun. I have never been before. I was pretty scared actually. I wore a life vest the first time down, after that I was okay not wearing one. But I'm so glad that our quad-tube did not flip!! I would have freaked out probably. & I'm grateful for having Zack or Braxton on the tube with me. They were willing to pull us to the sides if needed or get our tube moving. Ha. I was not about to jump into that water. Ewe. I'm afraid of those fishies!

Mom had surgery on her right foot a few days ago. It has been hard watching her try to get around with her crutches. It's hard not being home with her during the day when she might need something. I spent the weekend with her. We just watched TV the whole weekend. It was relaxing. I needed a weekend spent doing nothing.

My dad just purchased me a new car. Which I AM buying from him. Then I will be selling my car. Keeping my SUV of course for winters. Two cards, Summer & Winter, Is the only way to go! My new car is a cute Mazda 3. I just got it this weekend. Drove it for the first time tonight. So I'm still getting used to it. It has electric everything though (which my car never had), plus heated seats, plus a sunroof, plus an amazing system. I'm just hoping I'm not that annoying girl with the loud bass sitting at the stoplight. Ha.

Registered for classes. I want to do a minor though. Undecided on what I really want to do for a minor though. I did figure out a practicum site. I'm doing it at the Children's Justice Center. I'm excited & nervous at the same time. I hope I can handle it & do it well. Manage school, internship, & work. Wish me luck!

I will try to update more often. I just need to find the time. Blogging is time consuming for sure. Ha

-LOVES

o4.o9.14. wednesday

 Your value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth. 

Something I need to remind myself often.
BUT
It's a new day, baby.

Loves.

o3.19.2o14. Wednesday

I know I should be grateful for being able to do this college experience stuff. &  don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful that I can go to college & gain a better education.

HOWEVER.

I'm over this semester situation.

Yesterday in my adult aging & development class, the professor was mentioning how when people get older in life they keep their close friends but don't venture out to find new friends. She related it to us seniors how we don't venture out to make new friends because we are seniors in college & ready to graduate. I feel like that's where I am right now. I'm all alone up here. & I hate it.

Yes, I understand going home costs a lot in gas money. But right now, I wish I could go home every night. Wednesday's I have one class, all day. I try to get some studying done, but today, I have literally been home alone all day.

I made cookies. Banana Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies.
They are divine. & I have no friends to share them with. I told Zack that we are going to have to take some to his sister & her husband tomorrow when I come down. I look forward to Thursdays because after classes that means I'm pretty much home for the weekend. Til Monday at least. Coming back to Logan on Monday's is a drag. I hate it.

Just feeling down.
Rant over. . .

Loves. . .

o2.17.14. monday.

Happy President's Day.

I had surgery this past Thursday. I've known about it for a little over a month & the anticipation was killing me. I did not know what to expect except that I knew I would be in some pain after, but this surgery was supposed to make me feel better in the long run.

Last year I had around six sinus infections and strep throat twice. Constantly sick. I caught everything that anyone had. I went into the Dr the first of December and received an antibiotic. & exactly one month later I returned to the same Dr in January for another sinus infection. I had been on antibiotics for a whole month, so when I went back in the Dr said "something is definitely wrong.You shouldn't be sick again because you are STILL on antibiotics." She told me I had to go see an ENT Dr. So I made an appointment for the following week.

The ENT Dr put a camera up my nose & said I have an extra drainage spot that goes into my throat. I should have two, but I have three. This results in extra drainage into my throat, which irritates my tonsils which causes me to get sick. He then had me get a CT scan of my sinuses. I returned back to the Dr a few days later to review my CT scan. The first words he said when he walked into the room the following visit was "You have terrible sinuses, but you probably already know that." Yes I do.

The average sinuses hold about a cup of liquid when the person is sick. Mine were 3/4 of a cup full of puss that was not draining out of my sinuses. This caused me to continue to stay sick even though I was on antibiotics. The Dr then put me on more antibiotics, stronger ones. & recommended that I get surgery.

I scheduled surgery the day before valentines day. Zack was awesome & let us celebrate it the weekend before my surgery. He had flowers delivered & everything. It was perfect! Anyways, surgery went fine. I stressed out so bad. The IV was terrible. She did it in my hand. I would much rather have it in my arm. The hand was the worst. I was freaking out. Waking up after surgery I tried to touch my nose. The nurse quickly hit my hand down and told me I couldn't touch my nose. My throat killed because of the breathing tube they had to put in my throat during the surgery. The Dr said my surgery went well. I think I was in surgery for about an hour & a half. & in recover for a little over two hours. I was in the surgical center for a total of five hours. It was a long day. When I left I felt so sick to my stomach. My nose hurt. My throat hurt. I was so tired. I got home & threw up before making it into the house. Luckily they gave me a bag thing just in case I did throw up. What made it worse was that I threw up blood. It was disgusting. I felt a little better after throwing up but was still so tired. I had gauze taped under my nose & it quickly became full of blood.

I changed my gauze & rested. My mom made potato soup. It was hard to eat because the gauze was clearly in the way. Zack came over after work.Brought me some ice cream, Ice, & stayed the night because I had to sleep in a chair so my head wasn't down. I did not sleep at all. I tossed & turned & finally around five AM I was on the verge of tears. Zack woke up & got me some pain meds to make me feel better. The pain meds knocked me out for a few hours.

Friday was the real Valentines day. I could irrigate my nose that day, although I still (to this day) can not blow my nose yet. & I'm still irrigating it. It's pretty gross what stuff comes out. Lots of blood clots. ewe. Zack's sister brought my lunch on Valentine's day. It was really nice of her. Zack stayed with me again on Friday night to make sure I was okay. I slept better Friday night. My parents went & got a pizza for us. It was delish.

Saturday we laid around and hung out all day.Sunday we went to Zack's parents house for a little bit. Mostly to just get out of the house. I was so exhausted. I never knew that little things like that would seriously drain my energy. The little energy I had.

Monday (today) I went with Zack to lunch. & to his work office after. I was there for a little over an hour & suddenly was in so much pain. I needed a pain pill ASAP. I left. Came home & got a pain pill. I fell asleep after. It just knocked me out. Scrub shopping with Zack when he got off work. *New work policy is that starting March 1st we have to dress up for work or wear scrubs. I work at seven AM. No way am I going to dress up. So I had to buy some scrubs. PS. Scrubs are EXPENSIVE!* I was so worn out from going shopping. Came home & watched the Bachelor with Zack & my parents. Writing this now & then heading to bed. I should be going to school tomorrow, but I only have one class & it's at two-three. I'm going to miss it tomorrow & I will plan on going Wednesday. I'm feeling better but not all the way.  I need some more rest before heading back to Logan. I don't know how I am going to make that drive, period. One hour drive isn't anything, except when you are sick & have no energy. Blah. Dreading it.

Thank you for everyone for your love & concerns over the past few days.

Loves.

Wednesday. January 8th, 2o14.

Can you believe it's already 2014? Geez. Where has the time gone?

The break was far too short. It didn't feel like three complete weeks.
Spent most of it with my cute boyfriend.
I can truly say this is where I want to be.
I'm happy. He is my happy.

Class schedule this semester is kind of crazy.
Most of my classes reside on Tuesday's & Thursday's
Seven thirty AM til two PM.
Yuck.
One class Wednesday & Friday
& Two on Monday.

Seven classes total.
I'm just tryin' to get done with this college town.

Doctors yesterday, it never ends.
She told me I needed to go see an ENT Doctor
about possibly getting my tonsils out.
Appointment made for this coming Monday.
Not looking forward to it.
But this previous year I've been sick my fair share
& it needs to be solved.

My boyfriend came & saw me last night.
& took me out.
It's nice to have someone so willing in a relationship.
Nice to know it's not one sided.
He's perfect.

Upcoming plans that I'm pretty excited about.
2o14, Please be kind to me.

Loves.