1o.26.11 wednesday.

you've gotta be out there.
you've gotta be somewhere.
where ever you are, i'm waiting.
cause there are these nights when
i sing myself to sleep.
and i'm hoping my dreams
bring you close to me.
are you listening?

hear me i'm crying out
i'm ready now.
turned my world upside down.
find me.
i'm lost inside the crowd it's getting loud.
i need you to see i'm screaming for you to please.
hear me.

i used to be scared of
letting someone in
but it gets so lonely being on my own
no one to talk to
and no one to hold me
i'm not always strong.
oh i need you here, are you listening?

i'm restless and wild
i fall but i try
i need someone to understand
can you hear me?
i'm lost in my thoughts
and baby i've fought for all that i've got.
can you hear me?


* if you could see inside me. you'd see a bunch of little pieces that are supposed to make a love shaped figure and you might possibly notice how empty it is inside there. my eyes are too blurry to see the screen.

1o. 24. 11. monday.

i've decided to never get so overly excited for something to happen.
because you will be disappointed. that's a promise.

blah. seriously.

1o. o9. 11. sunday.

thank you pinterest. goodnight world.

1o.o2.11. sunday.

so it was conference weekend & honestly I was shocked by the amounts of friends on facebook that were commenting on conference. no big deal. BUT what is super annoying and hypocritical of people is when they say how excited they are for conference and how they have tickets to the sunday session. blah blah blah. and yet their other posts, through out the rest of the year, is nothing church like. with swear words and derogatory comments. they aren't a part of the church then, just when conference comes around and just when it's convenient for them. seriously, that is my biggest pet peeve ever.

or when someone barely watches conference or barely goes to church, but when they're around family they want to talk it up and make everyone think they're super religious. pet peeve.

believe in what you really believe, but don't lie about it. be truthful to yourself. don't try to impress anyone else, it's nonsense. really.

just venting a little, and expressing how i feel. it's my pet peeve. it's my opinion.

homework time. thee end.