December 31. 2o1o// friday.

so i went through the temple yesterday. Draper to be exact. and the lady that helped me was AMAZING! so cute! I got to go into the brides room and change in their. =) special attention. I loved it! initiatory was my favorite part! The blessings you get are so amazing! It was realllly really cool!! I'd love to go back and do them. However the session was . . . something else for sure. It was good but i was sooo lost and so confused. and technically, i'm kind of scared to go back. honestly. it was really cool to see how much support i received when i was there. everyone that came! meant soo much to me. especially because weather was awful! dax and i could BARELY get his car up the hill!! This guy pulled over and asked if we needed help! hahaha. we made it though. only a few more days til i marry my bestfriend. and BOY is it going to go by pretty fast! which is good. keep my mind off things. anyways. off for a night at my aunt and uncles with the family for new years. peace out kiddies. see you in 2o11!

saturday. 12.o4.1o.

one month from today until I marry my bestfriend.
i have so many mixed emotions.
excited. happy. nervous. scared. kind of all of the above emotions.
i get nervous and butterflies in my stomach, really bad when i think about it.
=D but i'm excited for my new life to begin with my soon to be husband.
i love him.

november . four . 2o1o.

oh my. it has been one heck of a semester. let me give everyone the key points.

*5 classes, 16 credits.
*work in ogden, monday. friday. every other saturday.
*engaged.
*planning wedding.

well. its becoming very stressful. especially the last couple days/weeks. i've never wanted to cry so much in my life. i feel so emotional over everything. i'm either jumping off walls with energy and happiness. or i just want to cry in bed and not talk to anyone. its been hard.

wedding planning is coming along well. engagement pictures are done. and the announcements are in the making. they should be sent to us soon. just the designs. then we pick them out. and send them out to be made. bridal and groomals are on the 13th of november. and then all three of my bridal showers are the week of thanksgiving. and three of those days will be spent in idaho, hopefully. i need to check with work for black friday off. but hopefully i can get it off! that would be splendid! i'd love to go shopping with dax's sisters. they're adorable!

I got my tattoo retouched yesterday, finally. it hurt like a beast. but it looks alot better. and I think if I wanted it, then no one else should judge. its me. my body. i will do what i please. and its not like i didn't already have a tattoo. i just fixed it. it was already there. do people not get that? sometimes I dont think people do. . . its very irritating.

dax and I went and looked at an apartment today, more like a townhouse. two levels. 1.5 bath. 2 bedroom. deep nice, walk in type closets. washer and dryer hookups. it was cute for a first house. and i dont think i'd feel scared to be there by myself. we didn't even ask if it was pet friendly. =( i dont want to live by myself. i want a little puppy.

I'm missing jess like crazy. its hard to have hardly any friends in logan now. =( real hard. sometimes i need girl time, not only fiance time. and i dont get that much up here with out friends. we've been hanging out with heidi and eli a bit. which is a good change. dax and i are doubling with jess and justin on saturday. we're going to a comedy show. it will be good. i work this saturday. kill me, yeah? i hope my foot allows me to work. i should say.because its all swollen and it hurts suuuper bad. meh. but i'm excited to finally see her in two days!

my classes are crappy this semester. dear everyone. never get married or plan a wedding DURING a semester. your grades will fall. horribly. =( i'm hoping to pass at least 4 of my 5 classes. because I know i wont be passing one of my classes. boo. its hard. never again will i take so many classes and plan something so big and so stressful. don't do it. i'm telling you.

tonight we have plans with heidi & mike. patrick & kayla. dax & i. it should be fun. we're meeting at chili's at 7:30. i can't wait. hopefully it'll be really good. i mean we all haven't really caught up with each others lives in a while. so cross your fingers it will be a success. and hopefully i can put my stressful life away for a bit.

I sold my contract! whooow! which was seriously like a big stress. so its nice to not have that stress anymore. some girl doing 'study abroad' in china bought it. she was really nice though, i hope she likes it since she wont be able to see it before hand. my roommates are getting pretty sweet. i told dax the other day that i was sad i was leaving because i really like my roommates. hopefully we'll keep in touch after i get married!

well i suppose i should be paying attention in humanities. so peace out kiddies.

saturday. o9. 18. 1o.

so i thought i'd catch you up on life. toady is a nerve racking day. i'll explain later in another post if all goes well. =)

jenny's wedding is today though. so excited for her! so dax and i are driving down to ogden for that. =) and then i'm going to help ashlee get ready for her dance while dax goes and works on his car with my dad. whenever the ac is on and he turns his wheel, it makes this awful squeaking sound. hmm. bridal faire next saturday, i took off work for it. sam is covering my shift. thank goodness! and jess' mom and sister are coming up to help me with that. since my mom works and can't get off and jess works. and dax works. so. yes. i'm excited that they're willing to help me plan this out! we kind of picked a day. but i'm going to keep all of you on your toes before i give out details about wedding anything. =)

i'm lovin my apartment up in logan. well some what. i dont really talk to my roommates, i wish i had my old merrill hall roommates. but i enjoy my own room. except when i find random gross big spiders. craig came and sprayed my room on thursday. so hopefully that's the end of that!

works been terrible. ronnie was on my case yesterday. and i was sooo mad about it. i asked him one question and he freaked out. and didn't even answer my question. i'm like 'k i'm not even talking about that! i'm asking about this other thing!' gosh. calm down. i really just need a new ob. somewhere where maybe i'm appreciated and not expected to work til 8 at night AND have to drive to logan that night. and get stuff done. seriously. its called being appreciative of your workers and them being able to stay late when they can. not abusing that and expecting them to stay late. basically i'm sick of it. sam's sick of it. jenny's sick of it. we should all quit and see them scramble for help, seriously. because kassidi is already going to quit once she's pregnant. and the pharmacists have been talking saying 'with her attitude she HAS to be pregnant. she's had quite the attitude lately' haa! so she probably is.

anyways. i'm off to get ready for the wedding. i have a few other things to do before i'm ready to head down.

peace out home slices.

ps. my sister and taylor came up and helped me with math homework lastnight. which was helpful. thanks sooo much. heading home sunday for the night so she can help me a little more and on a paper i have to write. i'm the 'on call' technician on sunday anyways. so might as well go home. i work in that crappy place monday anyways.

friday . o9. 1o . 1o.

work today all day.
work tomorrow all day.
work sunday all day.
work monday all day.

long weekend, i'm telling you. with some occasional studying. and maybe something else. but i dont want to mention it because i dont want to get my hopes up too much before hand.

anyways. i love my boyfriend. and i can't wait til one day when we just freaking tie the knot. and get out of this dating scene. I already feel like we ARE married. like when we go out with friends. and pay together and leave together. it feels like its already here. just get on your knee, put a ring on this finger, and lets make it official. haaa. enough.

i need to go do some psychology reading now.
but first. i went and saw 'the other guys' tonight. i thought it was soo funny. like i guess i didn't understand some of it because it was a boy movie. but it was hilarious on some parts! ahh! i liked it. =) i was laughing pretty well through it. eh. well now reading time. see yaaa.

friday . o8 . 2o . 1o.

oh my gosh. did i not just write about teenagers having sex and i hope they get pregnant. because they aren't using birth control. . . . . . . . . . . . .

to say the least, i'm pretty disappointed and upset. its not all flattery like people portray it to be. its a big responsibility that you CANT TAKE BACK. its a life that you just provided and made and have to take care of, not just while they're a baby and cute and blah blah blah. but forever. not til they're just 18. they'll be your child, forever. i'm so maddddd. ugh.

on another note. i did my first session of p90x tonight. and it rocked my body. basically. i'm so unbelievably sore. i did, oh only a zillion pushups. literally. i'm exhausted.

annnnd i work tomorrow. with ronnie, and he's the worst pharmacist to get people out semi on time. its like he doesn't care. its annoying. hopefully tomorrow he'll care somewhat. cross your fingers for me that we get out before seven. because that would make for a long freaking day. with no lunch.

i move up to college in one week. and i'm terrified. beyond belief. i wont have my bestie there with me anymore. =( and that scares me. having to make new friends. uh yeah i'm not very fond of the idea. nor am i very good at it either. =( i'm in a bummish mood right now. can you tell.

peace out home slice.

ps. happy anniversary mommy and daddy. i love youuu.

thursday . o8 . 19 . 1o .

birthday . wow . i cant' believe it!

twenty freaking years old!

jess called me at 3:57 am. and told me happy birthday.
and dax called me at 3:58 am.

i love those two. i seriously dont know what i would do without either of them.
they're perfect.


noooooow. . . yes i should be in bed. its almost midnight. but i'm not tired. =(

someone come party with me. dax already went to bed. he's no fun.

love your faces.

PS. i got beautiful roses today sent to my work. two dozen. he spoils me. and i love him so much!!