it seriously feels like saturday. and it feels like my computer is shaking. can i say that i'm running on eight hours of sleep for the past two days. eight hours total. i'm a bit tired. i've had a song stuck in my head for the past few days.
'heavenly father, are you really there. and do you hear and answer every childs prayer? some say that heaven is far away. but i feel it close around me as i pray'
perhaps it is a sign. . . yes i need something. something has got to give. . . well. i suppose i will go to bed. . yes. bed sounds wonderful. six hours tonight sounds amazing. then turkey bowl tomorrow. early seven am buddy buddy. . . dang. my pilates class isn't even THAT early. ha
goodnight world.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
11.20.11. sunday.
the following conversation happened at work yesterday:
kami: 'so, what test did you have yesterday?'
me: 'it was for horticulture.'
kami: 'ohhh. . . what's horticulture? do you learn about other people's cultures?'
me: hahahahahahahahaa.
hahah. that was cute kami. so innocent. ha. =)
plants is kind of like learning about other people's cultures. ;)
christmas shopping started, finally. <3
one day of school this week, bring it on.
&& i'm making blueberry lemon cupcakes tomorrow, i'll post pictures. perhaps.
kami: 'so, what test did you have yesterday?'
me: 'it was for horticulture.'
kami: 'ohhh. . . what's horticulture? do you learn about other people's cultures?'
me: hahahahahahahahaa.
hahah. that was cute kami. so innocent. ha. =)
plants is kind of like learning about other people's cultures. ;)
christmas shopping started, finally. <3
one day of school this week, bring it on.
&& i'm making blueberry lemon cupcakes tomorrow, i'll post pictures. perhaps.
Friday, November 18, 2011
11.18.11.friday.
It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think you're lost
But you're not lost
On your own
You're not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh, it finds us all
But we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh, but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through.
yes. i feel like i've never fully understood this song. until tonight. <3 i love my rascal flatts. they're lyrics are perfect.
i've done all that i can do. and i'm suuper grateful for all my friends who have stood by me through all of this & who have held me tight. and told me plenty of times that i'm not alone. thank you.
all that i'm going to say to you sir is, give credit where credit is due.
that is all for tonight friends.
i love you all, and i'm grateful for you all.
uhm. goodnight.
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think you're lost
But you're not lost
On your own
You're not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh, it finds us all
But we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh, but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through.
yes. i feel like i've never fully understood this song. until tonight. <3 i love my rascal flatts. they're lyrics are perfect.
i've done all that i can do. and i'm suuper grateful for all my friends who have stood by me through all of this & who have held me tight. and told me plenty of times that i'm not alone. thank you.
all that i'm going to say to you sir is, give credit where credit is due.
that is all for tonight friends.
i love you all, and i'm grateful for you all.
uhm. goodnight.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
11.o9.11.wednesday. again.
i love when my dad calls me to check up on me
and tells me that everything will be okay
and time heals everything.
it makes me cry even harder.
but it somehow makes me believe it,
because it came from him.
although it's a lot easier said than done.
my mom is thee best as well.
always there for me to talk to.
she's so smart & such a great listener.
i have thee best parents in the world.
& not to mention my little sister
is not so little anymore
she's very smart.
i love them.
come on baby, this too will pass.
and tells me that everything will be okay
and time heals everything.
it makes me cry even harder.
but it somehow makes me believe it,
because it came from him.
although it's a lot easier said than done.
my mom is thee best as well.
always there for me to talk to.
she's so smart & such a great listener.
i have thee best parents in the world.
& not to mention my little sister
is not so little anymore
she's very smart.
i love them.
come on baby, this too will pass.
11.o9.11.wednesday.
'love is telling someone the biggest secret you have, and the next morning, you're closer than ever.'
--says the lady on the tv earlier today.
well. . .
the CMA's are on tonight.
that's my positive thing for today.
I'll be home, alone. watching it.
my rascal babies will be performing.
and that's all that matters right now.
and i did freaking fantastic on my US institutions test last week. =)
WHOOOW!!
YES, all that studying DID pay off.
now off to write some papers for jazz and horticulture.
--says the lady on the tv earlier today.
well. . .
the CMA's are on tonight.
that's my positive thing for today.
I'll be home, alone. watching it.
my rascal babies will be performing.
and that's all that matters right now.
and i did freaking fantastic on my US institutions test last week. =)
WHOOOW!!
YES, all that studying DID pay off.
now off to write some papers for jazz and horticulture.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
11.o6.11. sunday.
today i learned that i am selfish.
but i once heard a wise girl say, in a round about way:
'you need to stop pleasing others and be selfish
by thinking of yourself and making yourself happy first.'
well. maybe that's what i'm doing.
maybe i'm not happy.
maybe that's why i'm being selfish.
i deserve to be happy just as well as the next person does.
if i could only see into the future and see how things really will be
that would make life a tad bit easier.
i'm done ranting for now.
but i once heard a wise girl say, in a round about way:
'you need to stop pleasing others and be selfish
by thinking of yourself and making yourself happy first.'
well. maybe that's what i'm doing.
maybe i'm not happy.
maybe that's why i'm being selfish.
i deserve to be happy just as well as the next person does.
if i could only see into the future and see how things really will be
that would make life a tad bit easier.
i'm done ranting for now.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
1o.26.11 wednesday.
you've gotta be out there.
you've gotta be somewhere.
where ever you are, i'm waiting.
cause there are these nights when
i sing myself to sleep.
and i'm hoping my dreams
bring you close to me.
are you listening?
hear me i'm crying out
i'm ready now.
turned my world upside down.
find me.
i'm lost inside the crowd it's getting loud.
i need you to see i'm screaming for you to please.
hear me.
i used to be scared of
letting someone in
but it gets so lonely being on my own
no one to talk to
and no one to hold me
i'm not always strong.
oh i need you here, are you listening?
i'm restless and wild
i fall but i try
i need someone to understand
can you hear me?
i'm lost in my thoughts
and baby i've fought for all that i've got.
can you hear me?
* if you could see inside me. you'd see a bunch of little pieces that are supposed to make a love shaped figure and you might possibly notice how empty it is inside there. my eyes are too blurry to see the screen.
you've gotta be somewhere.
where ever you are, i'm waiting.
cause there are these nights when
i sing myself to sleep.
and i'm hoping my dreams
bring you close to me.
are you listening?
hear me i'm crying out
i'm ready now.
turned my world upside down.
find me.
i'm lost inside the crowd it's getting loud.
i need you to see i'm screaming for you to please.
hear me.
i used to be scared of
letting someone in
but it gets so lonely being on my own
no one to talk to
and no one to hold me
i'm not always strong.
oh i need you here, are you listening?
i'm restless and wild
i fall but i try
i need someone to understand
can you hear me?
i'm lost in my thoughts
and baby i've fought for all that i've got.
can you hear me?
* if you could see inside me. you'd see a bunch of little pieces that are supposed to make a love shaped figure and you might possibly notice how empty it is inside there. my eyes are too blurry to see the screen.
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