o8.16.12. thursday.

Moving up to Logan this coming week. & I'll be honest, I'm a little nervous. I feel so secure with my life right now. I don't run into a lot of people that I don't care to run into. I spend time with Janalynn often & Ashley. & see some others that I enjoy seeing from time to time. Working plenty. & keeping busy. Change this time, isn't just change. Moving to Logan would never be such a big deal before. but I have a past up there. & That is a past that I would like to leave in the past. & Not revisit. Megan will be up there with me though, & that is a very good thing. She's adorable & I can't wait to move in with her & be roomies. & see who our other two roomies are. Hopefully they're nice. Because that's what I need. No crazies please.

Trent & I have been trying to touch base as much as possible. I wouldn't say it's easy & sometimes I feel bad. I want so badly to be there for him all the time. & right now, that's just not that possible. Skype can only do so much. I'm dreaming of the day that I can actually go back & see him. But right now, it's only just a dream. There's been some talk about what to do next May, school will be out. & my apartment will no longer be filled with my stuff. Debating actually going out & spending some time out there with Trent. But that's so hard to just jump into. Somewhere where I know nobody. Somewhere new. Somewhere with lots of change. & there's lots of questions to be asked about the situation. Right now, we just need to see where things go & just go day by day, week by week, month by month. May is a bit away. I'm really likin' this boy. He treats me well. really well.

My birthday is coming up this weekend. =) Bee's game with Ashley & her family on saturday night. & dinner with my parents sunday maybe? The plans aren't set for sunday yet. We will see what happens.

Birthday sunday, work monday, packing tuesday, move in wednesday, work thursday & birthday dinner with Ashley. work friday. work saturday. work sunday. school & work monday. I've got a long work week ahead of me after celebration birthday sunday. Can you believe school starts in a little over one week? Bring it on.

loves.

o8.12.12 sunday.

blog, unblocked.

Recently went & bought a new laptop. The whole side my previous one had ripped off basically. I have had it for four years though. It was inevitable. Been working a lot, In fact I work this whole weekend. Friday, Saturday, Today, Tomorrow, Tuesday. Makin' that money. HA!

Boating with the pharmacy yesterday after work. It was actually a lot of fun. I pretty much hate water but I didn't even get in the water, got on the boat & from there Mechel jumped in and pulled the wave runner over to me and I jumped on that from the boat.  Ha! It really was fun getting out with some coworkers I actually like & being on a real not work level with them. Thanks Marv for the boat & Ammon, Mechel, Christy, Joey, Cameron S, Cameron J, Brady, Shanae, Millie, & Cameron  S's  brother for coming. It really was a blast. =) It is the little things that make me realize I actually DO like some of my coworkers. Ha.

I move to logan on August 22nd. It should be exciting. Moving in with my lovely Megan. She's so cute. I love her. It will be a blast living with her. & I can't wait to find out who the other two girls will be. We are living off campus in Oakridge apartments. Megan & I are talking about buying a car pass so we can drive to campus instead of riding the bus. Or we could do both. The bus comes right in front of our apartment. I just don't know if I would enjoy riding the bus. Bleh. Back to Sophomore year of high school again I suppose. HAHA. Anyways. That's the big news going on in this girls life. Not a whole lot. Not so much ready for school to start, but ready to fill my life with some socialness.

Trent & I are still talking. I really do like him. It's definitely hard not seeing him. But we skype as much as possible & Talk on the phone often. Our schedules are a little off though, Me working days & him working nights. But we make it work as well as we can. For now at least, because we don't have any other choices. I do feel bad though, coming home from a long day of work & wanting to sleep, staying up as late as possible but Trent can tell I'm struggling to keep my eyes open on skype. I really am trying to be able to talk to him, but it's not easy & I can't imagine it will be any easier once school starts. Just something we both have to constantly try at, if we both want it.

BTW. my mom & I are having a  Norwex cleaning stuff party on Wednesday, August 15. Everyone is invited. So come &  hangout. It should be fun. Ask for details.

love you all.

o7.29.12. sunday.

Recently got back from Washington DC on Friday. I went & saw Trent for one whole week & wow. Did I have a great time. Time of my life, seriously. I couldn't have wished for a better vacation. The boy spoils me & had so many little surprises for me, It was amazing.

We spent a few days in DC itself. We went to the museum of natural history, definitely my favorite museum & a must see for everyone else who has never been there! Museum of American history was okay, It has the first legit American flag in it. suuuper cool to see! Washington monument, WWII memorial, Lincoln memorial, White house. We pretty much walked everywhere, until we were at the Lincoln memorial & wanted Panera Bread. Took a taxi & then walked from Panera to the white house & back to the museums. What an amazing experience to see so many things in history & yet, I feel like I didn't see anything! Because there's just so much to see!! We went to Arlington Cemetery one day. & that was amazing. So many headstones, I was in awh. I can not believe all of those soldiers died to protect our freedom. <3 love the military services our country has. We went into Annapolis (Marylands capital) a few different times. One of which Trent & I were dancing by the bay & he stepped on my foot. Snap! Broke my toe nail, that J just put on there a week ago, off! Dang Acrylic!! & Dang boy steppin' on my toe! So He redid my toes for me. hahaha. It was adorable. He's perfect. We got about a million smashed pennies in Virginia & Maryland. Spent some time in Baltimore. Went on a date to the Baltimore aquarium. Amazing & Cheesecake factory! Loved every second of it! Went to 3 Different shopping malls. & Saw the Katy Perry Movie in 3D! I loved it. Trent liked it as well (He just wont admit it to his buddies.) ha. Such a boy. Busch Gardens one day. SUUUPER hot, sweating all over the place, but it was so much fun & we had the times of our lives. I even dodged some knives that were being thrown at me in the 3D movie. ahh!! 'did you really just dodge those?!' YES THEY LOOKED REAL!! hahahah. Or Trent's face on the roller coaster picture, scared as freaking ever when I'm making the cheesiest face of my life, smiling away! My flip flop broke when we were with his friends eating Lunch at the mall & He fixed it with a safety pin I had. He says 'A city boy would not have been able to fix that! Just us country boys!' hahaha!! So SO SO true! Dinner at a few of his friend's houses. Thank you to Ryan & Tasja & Derek & Emily for having us over. Drove around a lot & saw the LDS temple. It was really cool to hang out with Trent's friends & even though they might have bad military mouths, when they say how beautiful the LDS temple is at night, all lit up. It is amazing to hear. They just light up when they talk about the beauty!

We gained so many new quotes, like the little seven year old at the aquarium that was yelling 'WHAT THE HECK! Look at that HUGE EEL!! That's a HUGE EEL!' when it was clearly a tank full of stingrays. & the parents just stood there looking at the 'eels'. Parenting at it's best. HAHAHA! Or the little boy that was at the natural history museum & said 'I'M A FROG!!' or the kid behind us at busch gardens on the roller coaster that kept saying 'OH SNAP! OH SNAP WE ARE GOING TO MAKE A TURN! OHHH SNAPPP!!' hahaha. or the girl & her  boyfriend fighting on the pier in Annapolis about chicken wings. 'I ate all your chicken wings' says the girl. 'NO YOU DIDNTTT' says the boy. hahaha!

He bought me a build a bear pig. We called her pink. She's adorable & Trent loved cuddling with her. She loves her daddy. We however did not get a family picture, Which I'm bummed about. But we will get another time. He bought me these beautiful earrings, that he gave me on the pier in Annapolis? I think. & surprised me with Lace Toms sitting on my suitcase one morning when I got out of the shower! They're perfect! He's so cute & all these simple little things he did for me/simple surprises that meant the world to me! Like when we went out to the pond at night & did sparklers & ate ice cream & laid under the stars. Something so simple, yet perfect in my eyes. That is until the mosquitoes came out & attacked me & my knee swelled up. Dang Mosquitoes!

Had an amazing time being in this truck, way too big for me to get in or out of. Trent often had to help me in and out of it. The seat I had to jump into was up to my face. & Drivin' like a rockstar, with black tinted windows & singing songs loud and proud with Trent. It's been a while since I've smiled that much & been that happy. What an amazing feeling to have again. I wouldn't have traded it for the world.

Unfortunately back to reality. My flight got into the airport in SLC at 10:30am friday, & I pretty much went straight to work after that. Worked friday & saturday. So it is finally nice to have a sunday off & catch up on some things. Spent saturday night with my J. She's adorable & it was nice to just have it be her & me yesterday. We went & got subway & went to sally's. Went back to her place & watched Ladder 49 while Gossiping & eating our subway dinners. She then did extensions in my hair. & we dyed her hair & fixed a few of my fingernails that were pulling up & fixed my toe nail that Trent broke off. Hahaha! The night ended with Purple hair extensions in both of our hair! & laying on her bed listening to CRAZY GIRL on the radio! Missing our boys. <3 Loved spending time with her, It was one long week without her, but I was with my Trent. & I just wish I could have been with BOTH of them. They're both amazingly wonderful. Love them.

Enjoy the pictures, because facebook is yet to see most of these! <3 loves.

 
 

o6.2o.12. wednesday.

one month from last night, I will be in DC with Mr. Trent.

did I mention I'm super excited.

SUPER EXCITED.

Yes, now if only the next month will fly by.

<3 goodnight loves.

o6.17.12 sunday

Although I do love my luke bryan. <3
& I'm honestly not a fan with Kenny Chesney's new songs.
But this one, I just can not get enough of it.

youtube: come over.

<3 love love love love.

goodnight fellas. love YOU.

o6.15.2o12. friday.

                                 
Work has been interesting. I mostly enjoy my job. I made this cute note the other day on a nystatin order. All statin medications we change to zocor. so this is just a play on words, because nystatin is not a cholesterol medication. it's a yeast medication.Needless to say, the pharmacists got a kick out of it. Thinkin' it was cleaver.  hahah.

I've been hanging out with my J baby. She's so pretty. =) I love her.
She's most def. a best friend of mine. She's always got my back
So understands when I need to vent & she gets me!
Doesn't leave me for anything. Love her.
& what's even better is, we are both so stinkin' pretty.
She posted this picture on her facebook the other day &
her friend was like 'what the heck J! hook me up with your friend!! She's gorgeous!'

                                                     

 So. . . Low and behold, I have a blind date on monday with him. Eek. Ha =) Hopefully it goes well. Not looking for anything serious, just looking for a fun time & making new friends. ha.

Cami brought baby Fallon over the other day. She's getting so so big! Love her. She's so fun.
She loved my nails. It was cute watching her. & cute watching cami play mom!
Talked to her about Trent. She's excited for my little country boy. hahaha.

Today at work, we were slow during the end, Kami asked what size of shoes I wore. I said 'uh probably the same size as you.' so we swopped shoes. Yes we wear the same size. Then Jenifer was like 'okay girls, use one foot & make a pair of feet.' Hahaha. Her and Brady ended up sneaking pictures. It was fun.

I'm learning how to be strong. & even though I know people are watching over my ever actions, I wish they would just know that I'm doing things I need to do, for myself right now. I don't need to impress anyone. So please let me deal with my relationship with my Heavenly Father. He knows I'm doing the best I can. I don't need anyone else trying to correct me in my faults. Thanks for looking out for me, but I'm a big girl. I will be okay. . .

Ps. I might actually happen to have a ticket to DC next month. . . To go see Trent! =) He doesn't know yet. But will find out tomorrow, hopefully. I thought the package with my flight itinerary would be there today, but It wasn't. So cross your fingers for tomorrow. I need this vacation. . . & It's these little things that I would not get to experience if I was married to him. That's for sure. Travel was not in his agenda for us. . . Fortunately, I get to still make those choices and spend my money on flights & things I want to do, without having to check with someone.

o6.o6.12 wednesday.

After an emotional night last night & an emotional day today
I went out with my fellow tasty's crew, well some of them.
Maki, Kendrick, Jr, Mike L, Mike J, & Ashley.
It was. . . Well. . JUST WHAT I NEEDED.

We went to dinner at The Beehive Grill.
Not impressed by the food, but the company was great!
Talking all about the fellow coworkers at tastys & everything.
Talking about where we are in our lives now & what we are doing.
It was wonderful catching up.

Mike L, Mike J, Ashley, Kendrick, & I went out for mcdonalds ice cream
on our way home. which was delish. love us some mcflurries. mmm.
& Thanks Mike for driving!!

After I got home I called my Trent. Sleepy little thing. It was cute.
I told him I was home safe & goodnight.
Then called Maki & we talked about divorce & everything for a while.
& Basically, it was JUST what I needed to hear.
Someone that can fully relate with me about a real subject.
I wouldn't wish divorce on anyone, but I am glad I have someone
who I can talk to about the topic & they really understand what I'm feeling.
He's great!! I really appreciate him & I'm thankful that we are still friends.

It was a good night. Yes.
Plans with J tomorrow for lunch, then Dr appointment, then plans with Nate.
Goodnight loves.