o1.27.13 sunday again

Just kidding, here's your picture. Awh. How cute is he.
Okay, okay we both look tired. We were. But it was a fun get away.

o1.27.13 sunday.

Well this semester has been crazy already. I can't believe I'm already starting my 4th week of the semester. Seems weird. Stats is nottt fun. I'm staying alive in it, so far at least. The other classes seem nice. I'm really liking my communications class, even though all the papers due in that class WILL kill me. I really like the professor. She's sweet.

I've been going on quite a bit of dates lately. It's been fun, but there's something about dating that I just hate. Probably the fact that when you're on a date, you have to be thee happiest girl ever. & that you're super interested in everything they have to say. Anyways, I've had fun. But I decided to settle it down & get myself a boyfriend. Mr. Matt Taylor. We went for a little get away over the weekend with my parents & some of my parents friends. It was so nice to just get away with him & just be ourselves. Something about him makes me forget about everyone & everything. It's a nice feeling. Hopefully he can deal with me & my crazy work/school schedule. It'll be a challenge, but I think we can make it work.

We decided this a few days ago after having the DTR talk. It was nice. Then I worked, & we had a set double date with Janalynn for saturday & I got a cold. HOW annoying. Rescheduling that soon.

Work is keeping me busy. But being flexible with my schedule & the snow storms we have had. We had an ice storm on thursday. It was insane. I've never seen anything like that, ever. It was weird. Everything was just iced over. Been having fun with my roommates lately. They're great. Amanda, Megan, & I are looking for places to live next semester. Hopefully we can figure it out soon. I wouldn't mind staying in oakridge, with a few exceptions.

Like the other day when when our fire alarms went off ALL NIGHT & I called the on call emergency oakridge phone number & no one answers. or ever calls me back. Unacceptable. The fire fighters were at our house & they couldn't do anything. It was oakridge that needed to.

Life has been crazy & life has been great.

Loves.

Ps. was going to post a picture of Matt & I & our weekend away. but that will have to wait until I get to college with better internet.

12.28.12. Friday.

I received rockin' grades this semester. Couldn't have done it without the willingness of Cameron, at work, to take my every other Friday shifts & the 'no man' in my life. Sheesh. What you can do when you truly have no life except school & work. What a great feeling it was.

I had three finals. Did well on all of them, but one of them super surprised me. I took it knowing if I even received a 90 on my final, my grade would only be a B+. & If i didn't take the final at all, my grade would be a B+. Well. I took it & received 96% on my final. Only missing two questions out of fifty. What an awesome feeling! & So worth the studying I did put into school this semester.

Been working a lot over the Christmas break. It's been good. Spent Christmas with my family, Michayla came in town. It was really great to have everyone here. She even brought her dog, ruby. Ha. She's suuper big but she's a good dog. Decided we would plan a girls night for Feb. & head down to St George to see Mick. That will be a great little get away.

It's been snowing a lot & my SUV has been wonderful in it. Four Wheel Drive SAVES my life. Seriously. I enjoy it. Although I'm sure when I live in Logan, I won't think my drive is as glamorous as it is now, only driving twenty minutes (no snow) compared to my hour drive with no snow.

Working this weekend, what a drag. & it makes for a long four day weekend. But after shattering my phone in the snow the day after Christmas, I suppose working is what I need to do. Yuck. What a gut wrenching feeling that was. Anyways. Working tomorrow, going to get to bed soon. Or go read in bed. Mmm. Yeah. Leave you with this picture, from Christmas.

Loves.

12.18.12 tuesday.

Love this quote.Watch your behavior, because that's what people will pay attention to, more than anything. Watch how you treat others. Because that could come back & bite you in the butt. Behavior is key to keep others around. They want to be around those with great personalities & those who show positive behaviors & positive interactions with others.

Loves Yous.

12.13.12. Thursday.

One Year ago this weekend (Finals weekend) I made a big decision. I moved out of my cute little townhouse and moved my things into a house in Perry. Placing some things in storage & setting out to find out what I needed for myself in life. I saved all my things. Our Table. Our Couches. Our Washer/Dryer. It's been sitting in storage. Until recently. I finally gained the courage to sell my things. The things that I've been holding onto forever because they reminded me of "him" & more importantly "us". I sold the table. The table that we ate dinners at sometimes. & The table that we tried to figure things out at when things were falling apart. It's gone. Sold. & The couches. Those couches we watched movies on, many nights of the week. The couches we sat on with company that came and saw us. Sold it. Starting over. My dad once said, "Why would you want to keep that stuff? Wouldn't you want to just start over & start fresh?" He was right. I do want to start over & start fresh with new things. With my new somebody. Not sharing my old things with a new somebody. It makes sense in my head. . . Even though it's hard.

I've gained a lot of confidence in myself this year & I've had a few people comment just within the last month about it. I haven't started dating much, until recently really. & I've gone on a few blind dates. One of which happens tomorrow & on Saturday. It's funny. People like playing "match maker" & I don't mind. This week I've had a few dates. Date: Tuesday. Date: Wednesday. Date: Today (Thursday). Date: Tomorrow (Friday) & Date: Saturday. It's nice. Having someone spend some money on me. Last week I went on a few dates. Different boys. Just nice getting out & meeting people most importantly.  Anyways.

I took three finals this semester. Can I just brag about my awesome grades this semester. Three A's & one B+. Yeah. That just brought my GPA up TREMENDOUSLY! I'm so proud of myself. & I'm basically working full time every other week alternating with part time. =) That's all. Doing what I need to, for myself. That's all.

Loves.

12.o3.12. monday.

You say don't walk away
But baby give me one good reason
More than just a line
You better make it count this time
You told me but you never really showed me
That I'm worth the fight
Oh I'm worth the fight

Baby, just breathe in
Breathe out
Before you turn around
Just/slow/down
Think of all the love we've made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
I know through all this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains

Love takes time to build it's defenses
And trust takes time to tear down those fences
And love remains that's stronger than ever before
So don't walk out that door
I don't wanna hurt anymore


Gosh. Song of my life. These holidays are killing me. . .
SOMETHING HAS GOT TO GIVE.
It's 1:16am & I can't sleep . .
Thank you mind for racing at such convenient times, oh wait.
You haven't stopped all week. . .

--Lady Antebellum.

Check it. ^^^ Loves.

11.27.12. tuesday.

Yesterday I received quite the compliment from one of my coworkers. Pharmacist Timothy told me how he noticed my self confidence had improved tremendously over the last few months. He told me he could tell I am very confident in myself and the way I present myself. He said maybe everything I have been through in the last year has had an influence on my self confidence. I was actually excited to hear this information. Knowing that he feels like I have improved my self confidence and the fact that he volunteered to tell me that, made me feel great.

I haven't noticed it but I guess in some ways I have increased confidence in myself. The way I present myself towards others. A lot of it might be that I feel like people watch what I do more now that I am divorced. I am confident in myself, knowing I tried my hardest in doing what I could to continue my marriage. I can't dwell on that. I need to move on & better my life. Dax was a big confidence boost in my life when we were together. But now, I am my own confidence boost. I do well at school & I have an awesome work ethic. I am financially stable, affording to purchase my second vehicle two weeks ago.

I might have posted about this a few weeks ago. but oh well. I'm saying it again. My bishop told me a few weeks ago that everything I have been through in the past year or so has made me grow up ten times faster than what I normally should have had to grow up.

I couldn't agree with him more. I've kind of picked myself up. I can't rely on people to hold my weight and be the keeper of my self confidence. I need to do what's right for myself.

Speaking of which, I watched Teen Mom 2 last night. & seeing Leah go through everything with her ex husband & her divorce. & seeing how she might have screwed up but she wanted to try counseling and she wanted her family to stay together, made me feel like our lives were so the same. I might have screwed up. but in the end I wanted my marriage to work. I wanted to do counseling. I tried doing everything I could. But just like in the case of Leah & Corey, Leah couldn't do it by herself. & Corey didn't think it would help. In the end, they didn't go to counseling. It was hard to see how broken up Leah was during the episode. But now, I see how happy she is with her new guy & how she's expecting a baby & how happy she is. Gives me hope for my future.

Anyways. I'm done rambling. I purchased a new car a few weeks ago. I finally brought it up to college and decided to share my new purchase with everyone yesterday. Here's a cute picture of my new car!!! I'm pretty happy about my purchase. It's basically. . . brand new.

Loves.